Psa 143:10
They listen to the angel’s words – can it be? - and they scurry, terrified and full of joy.
Terrified and full of joy - I live there. It is possible to be afraid of what obedience might bring next and be full of thanks and overflowing joy and TRUST anyway. This giddy anticipation because we see all that He has done for us and we believe that He can only bring more good. Good, even in the ugly.
We sit in the lantern light late into the night and the tears stream. We sit broken and I choke out the ugly words, words that have been there but I have been too appalled to voice, “I think sometimes, I am afraid to trust the will of God.” Ugly sin. All these shortcomings, all these iniquities, I let them flow. “I mean. I do trust Him. But sometimes I am still afraid of what He might bring next.”
God did not give me a spirit of fear… perfect love drives out fear… do not be afraid I am with you…”
Today I gaze at my Savior and I know: courage is not the absence of fear.
Courage is to say, “I am afraid,” but walk it anyway. Courage is to stand broken and limping and look into these faces around us, His faces, and say, “Not my will but yours Father.” Courage is to say, “I don’t want to do this,” but to grab tight to a slaughtered Son and let His blood pool in my sin-holes and allow Him to pull me with Him into glory.
To wonder if He sees and how could this be the good and perfect plan, because you know, it looks pretty ugly sometimes. But I also know that I can trust Him anyway because I would have never put my child on the cross and He did that. He did that for me and for you. And because of what He’s done, I trust Him with all that He is yet to do.”
Taste and see that the LORD is good;
blessed is the one who takes refuge in him. Psa34
I hate feeling jealous. I hate it so much:/ I hate having to make hard decisions and then watch the consequences- even if I’m pretty sure its what God wants me to do. gahhh I hate this so much:/ I’m so sad and I’m so tired of it. this stinks:(
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Sometimes it brings me to tears to realize how…much I don’t know my God. I’ve been a Christian for my whole entire life. When people ask me, I give them the honest answer that I can’t remember a time when I wasn’t a Christian. And yet, I doubt God so much sometimes. And it’s because I don’t truly understand or trust Who He is. Almost 20 years, and I know so little of who He is. Part of the reason I have such a hard time trusting Him is because I know what He’s capable of. He let my little brother get cancer, and be so sick. He also healed my brother. He gives such great, amazing blessings, but He also has the power, the absolute RIGHT, to take it all away. And i’m realizing that I am scared to death of this. I don’t even know why I’m all of a sudden scared of this. It seems like I would have delt with this years ago…
I am so thankful that He’s given us His Word. He didn’t have to. He doesn’t owe us anything. Yet He gives us His word, His Words, that reassure me, and speak truth to me when I doubt. I am thankful that Jesus loves my loved ones more than I am even capable of comprehending.
The Lord, your God, is in the midst of you, a mighty one who will save. He will rejoice over you with joy. He will calm you in his love. He will rejoice over you with singing. ~Zephaniah 3:17
For as high as the heavens are above the earth, So great is His lovingkindness toward those who fear Him. ~Psalm 103:11
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future. ~Jeremiah 29:11
And not only this, but we also exult in our tribulations, knowing that tribulation brings about perseverance; and perseverance, proven character; and proven character, hope; and hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out within our hearts through the Holy Spirit who was given to us. ~Romans 5:3-5
For one will scarcely die for a righteous person—though perhaps for a good person one would dare even to die— but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. ~Romans 5:7-8
Owl City - In Christ Alone
“Sin’s curse has lost its grip on me
For I am His and He is mine.
No guilt of life, No fear of death
This is the power of Christ in me”
I write funny movie quotes in my phone…so that when im bored, i can laugh at them….
He was despised and rejected by mankind, a man of suffering, and familiar with pain. Like one from whom people hide their faces he was despised, and we held him in low esteem. Surely he took up our pain and bore our suffering, yet we considered him punished by God, stricken by him, and afflicted. But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed. We all, like sheep, have gone astray, each of us has turned to our own way; and the LORD has laid on him the iniquity of us all.
